I Find It Hilarious;

How everyone interprets my blogs in different ways. The past few weeks, I’ve had all different people come up to me and question me on what I meant in ‘this’ part of my blog, can they get a shout out and others assume parts of my blog are about them; when there not. Ha, I should really start to watch and clarify what I’m saying in these blogs – I honestly thought I had no readers and this was just a way for me to stop and think. My bad xD

Two weeks off overnights. Should be good for some change, it feels like I’ve been doing them forever. Don’t get me wrong, I actually like them. I’m a night owl, but being on the move for 8 hours when people are sleeping gets me tired very quick, because as I’m making some dutched up customers massive munchies order, I could be chilling (and/or sleeping like a normal person:P). The only real things that bug me about them are the constantly changing shifts and weird nights like Monday off, where you need to stay in a sleeping pattern so your up all Monday night; what could I possibly do on a Monday night? Yeah; nothing. The only other thing that bugs me, not as much, but that the crew get all the shit for things that don’t go to plan, when the close crew don’t finish their jobs, we have to finish it; when we don’t finish our jobs because we’re finishing close then our jobs, we stay back.. usually without pay.

Ehhh, it’s not that major, just felt like having a bitch after spending all yesterday talking to J after overnight about everything and anything. Ohhhh, a plus side to having two weeks off overnights; no more listening to J’s Ipod about love songs and Justin Bieber; there you go J, you got your shout out.

I’m writing this blog while I’m into hour two of being on hold to 3 mobile customer care; keyword they have missed, care! I swear, I’m going to find a way to have my keycard, mobile and keys attached to my hip so I stop losing them and or getting them stolen. -_-“ I’m becoming hopeless with this stuff. Brightside after I soon sign my pay checks over to 3 mobile, I’ll have myself a new Iphone 4 :) I always said I was going to do it, I guess this is going to force me seeing as I currently don’t have a phone :(

I got given an offer towards the beginning of the year, never thought I could consider it. In the light of current events, it’s never seemed more appealing to me. I have the next two weeks to give them my final answer, I’m just worried my decision will be rushed and I won’t be able to go back. Not to mention, yes it will get me out of all of situations and drama, but what about the others I’ll be leaving behind. I have told the major people this affects, some are happy for me, some.. ehhh, didn’t seem so excited? These coming weeks are going to be full of thinking for me, yay, something else for me to stress over! Ha. You have no idea what I’m talking about, yeah well now that I know people actually read this, I’ll post what I’m talking about when I come to a final decision. :)

Ohh; on a good note for something on my mind, plans for my birthday are some what being finalized soon :) should be good for some time off work, get away from constant dramas that seem to go in circles and just go have some fun! Haha, I’ll post deetz soon for all the stalkers that want to know what I’m doing! Lol.

Anyway; I’m off. Might go put on a movie while I STILL wait on hold:P

__xoxo.
Matthew Dragoslav.

I think it's time for a holiday,

^^ yeahh, that's about it :) I really want a holiday:P things are getting way to hektic, got my birthday coming up soon(ish) maybe I'll ask for a week off and get out of town with some friends.. yeahh, sounds good to me! :)

Untitled;

WARNING: this post is long overdue and as such, will be go on forever, read at your own discretion.

The past week has been rough, everything seems to be reminding me of all the different aspects of my past; it feels as though I’m dealing with everything that has happened through out my life all at once and over again; it’s doing my head in.

In the past week I have questioned almost every aspect of my own personality and thoughts towards life; but I can’t seem to justify my old ways of thinking. I know this intro to the blog may sound like I’m down and lost without any means of finding direction; quite the opposite, I think it’s just I’m finally allowing myself to think about the things that have happened over the course of the past six months and I’m hoping it’s for the better.

School. I never really enjoyed or hated going to school, some days were tough, but who doesn’t have a few tough days at school? Looking back, those were some of the best days. I made some friendships that I’ll have or remember for the rest of my life during this time. Eg. Lisa xD I love her tenmuches and I know if I didn’t mention her I’d get a good screaming on facebook! Although I do miss my friendship with Jayne and anyone who has known me long enough has probably just died of shock that I’d admit that. I wish things had been different, some wiser judgements on both parts, but hey that’s life, it sucks, but things have gone so far, what can be done now?

Kirra. Where to start? I wish some things were never said because I saw our friendship lasting forever and I think everyone else did too; I don’t even know what to write or why I’m writing this, all I can say is, thank you, even after everything, I’ll never forget the times spent together, both the good and bad times we went through together, all the inside jokes and quotes we have; like the awkward moments when we’d be sitting at the kitchen table in stiches and everyone else would just sit with a puzzled look on their face. The things we got up when our parents weren’t watching, like almost dying of hyperthermia and/or drowning in my bathtub that night, or the drain I still to this day won’t stand on unless it’s covered by the floor towel. All these fucking things I can’t get out of my mind that make me feel sad because they’ll never happen again, but yet still make me smile and want to laugh at how ridiculous and stupid they are. Listening to word of mouth, I’m sorry if I ever made you do things you didn’t want to; I was under the impression that we were having fun and both having a say in what we were doing, that is presumably wrong and if your reading this, I’m sorry.

Ivana. I’m not going into this one; she has everything I wanted to say already written in writing. One thing I will say, I do miss her and the spontaneous nights and I feel weird sometimes when I still go to call her because it’s what’s been the normal for me for so long now, but I doubt this friendship will ever return, nor at the moment do I want it to be honest, I just wish the awkwardness and the constant silences would end, but time should mend all that.

One thing I want to say on this topic, which I have been meaning to write down for a good time is all the drama that has apparently been going on between myself and the “TWK”. Although I don’t know where the extent of all the gossip has gone to because I took myself out of the situation and quite frankly, ignored it. I want to publicly say; you guys got the wrong end of the stick. Things mentioned in previous blogs which people love bringing up, weren’t aimed at anyone in the TWK and the people who it was aimed at know who they are because I personally messaged them. Funny hey, how they never spoke up and told everyone else that it wasn’t aimed at the entire group? Yet, they just stood by and allowed divides to be created. The things said by these guys that will remain nameless was harsh towards Ivana, even though I don’t speak to her, I will still defend that they should pick a side and stick to it, gossiping behind peoples back just starts more drama when it comes out. Case and point; although it fell on me. Now that I have said that, I’m not expecting messages or anything really from anyone, I just wanted to finally say my peace and finally get this message out. On saying that, if people want to talk, you know how to contact me and I always up for a chat when I’m free.

I think I’m finally coming to terms with where I’m at. It’s been a major smack in the face that things will never be the way they were and I have been holding on to that expectation that things will magically go back to some form of normal if there is such a thing. The people who have stuck by me through thick and thin, I am indebted to forever and I no longer feel the longing to depend on them or anyone else for that matter. I found a new found inner strength to just deal with things on the spot like I used to; which I was always known as a bitch for. I don’t need people around me 24/7 to keep my mind occupied away from things that will get me down. It’s time for me to regain my sanity. I will no longer define myself or judge myself on the material objects that I own, it’s to draining to always be wearing the more expensive clothes, to have my hair sitting perfectly and act like I didn’t spend hours getting it the way it looks. I think I have just finally accepted the way my life has worked out and I am okay with it, honestly, I’m still alive aren’t I? Just because things have changed, I’m not going to dwell.

My fingers are exhausted and so is my mind; so I’m leaving this blog and going to simply say, the bitch is back. xD

__xoxo.
Matthew Dragoslav.

Change Is Inevitable;

It’s true, but does it have to be final with no way of reverse? I’m sitting here listening to ‘old’ music, it’s making me both laugh and remember the past few years. I don’t even know where to begin!

One thing that it does bring to my mind, why does everyone think humans are superior than any other race on earth? Alright, I’ll give it that we are more technologically advanced, but emotionally… do I even need to go there? It seems like every one wants to just listen to that juicy gossip or when in a fight, never make the first move… then just TALK! LOL, seriously it’s fucked. :)

^^^ there is my rant for the week! Haha

The past week has dragged on for ages :P That might have been because I did all-nighters and somehow pulled a twenty-two hour stay at work both helping them with F.O.R. prep (our head office visit) and fixing my never ending car troubles! We passed our F.O.R. with a triple A rating which everyone seems to be pleased about :)

How could I forget last Friday nights being cheap night! Everyone wanted to go to Bl!nk, but no one wanted to spend the money.. long story short, we ended up driving in just to get Subway around the corner from Bl!nk and getting our friends that had gone to come eat with us! Haha

Haha, and going to the “Catho” Monday night with Bec before work because we both had o/night and Charlie had a meeting there, we thought we would have the awkward moment of seeing them as they’d most likely have a conference room.. ha, yeah as soon as we walked in we saw them and had to pull out money right next to them.. Awkward! :P Was a good night just “having a slap” on the dingers and playing keno while we ate.. bahaha, so bogan :( lol.

This weeks going to be my lazy week, although I’ve been saying that for the past month! Haha, I’ll keep you posted!

__xoxo.

Matthew Dragoslav.

On A Lighter Note..

Well I figured I needed a lighter note from my last blog and I'm going to start making an effort to right these blogs more frequently :)

I think I need to get away, I think I'm going to get away this weekend. I don't know where too, I don't know who with, I just simply miss being spontaneous and free! All the drama of the last few months used to be nothing for me and I think it's because I feel so "caged in" that I can't handle it. So from now on, no more concentrating on the drama and more to just going to the care free me who just went with the flow :)

Ohhh; for those interested, I killed the suave! haha, I got bored and wanted yet another change of style, I couldn't decide so I went back to my old style ("the old enddy") but that will be changed soon yet again ;)

Haha, well I can't think of anything else to write at the moment, my mind is numb as it is currently 5am and I have just finished my 8 hours overnight shift =/ ahhhh, another day, another dollar :D lol.

I'll keep you posted on the spontaneous getaway plans through out the week:P
__xoxo.
Matthew Dragoslav.

I'm Done;

Why do I seem to love befriending and trusting the people who in life love the drama of making the fights even worse than they really are? Yes, people from time to time have a difference of opinions, don't see eye to eye, an argument is started; does that mean a world war 3 needs to be created? On that note, when we become so close to our "besties", our "BFF's", we know exactly what would hurt them emotionally and I'm done with the ones that use those things and people in your life against you to get at you, it's beyond childish. Yes, it's the easy way out and at the time, gosh won't it make you feel better about situation, even yourself to extent, but will you still feel the same down the track?

Your reading this blog (I'm not going to play dumb, if your reading this blog you know who it's about) and thinking I'm taking this all out on you; I'm not. The people that surround you and don't speak up and sit on the fence, or even worse; going between you and I and making us both believe that their on our sides are just as gutless and as worthless as what you did.

I think the past years just taught me you really can't trust your life with anyone, it'll only lead your heart to be broken, which is an extremely pessimistic outlook on life but I can't seem to see a better way to sum it all up.

In closing, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being there for you when other's wouldn't of cared, which was quite alot. I'm sorry for doing all those stupid little things to calm you down, even stupid things like giving you money to put petrol in your car to calm your nervesbecause it was "close" to the empty line. I'm sorry I sat on the phone to you for hours, of my own credit because you were always out of credit, listening to you whine about problems that weren't really problems or should I say, not yours... but yet I still listen sympathetically and tried giving advice... remind you of conversations? Think about our last conversation on the phone. Lastly, I'm sorry for wanting you to be there for me when things were crashing around me and then blowing up, sorry that I expected you of all people to stop and listen, show an incling of sympathy, or even caring when everything seemed to be falling apart... I was even wanting you t fix the problems, because I knew you couldn't if I couldn't, just knowing you were there would have been alot easier.

Sorry for the rage ranting, I guess it's what I have to do to clear my mind of all the thoughts.

Now, I'm Done.

Mood: Apathetic, But Things Are Looking Up!

.. So many different things, both good and bad, are happening right now I don't know if I should be overwhelmed with joy (lol) or be depressed, not as far as the typical emo kid! I've hit a major crossroads in my life, well.. it's been hitting me for the past 6 months, but now its time to make those final moves that change everything; and just makes me sit here right now with a blank look on my face =/

One thing I've promised to myself though, I won't let those things in my life and those people in (and now.. out) of my life dragged the rest of the good things in my life down :)

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Therefore on a happier note; the good things happening in the net few weeks :D

• Ricky's 18th :)
• JoJo's 18th :)
• Clubbing with Vince & Jess (&. co) this weekend
• Jess starting at my work (LOL!)
• Mounties.. nothings planned, but I'm almost positive I'll be there at some point with all the new "adults" xD!
• Green P's!
• Soon To Be; MY OWN PLACE :D
• Fix up Harold's Sound System ... way overdue !!
• Random Late Night Hangouts? ->.. yeah most likely knowing the TWK.
• ... and more that I can't think of:P!

:) can't wait for this chapter of my life to begin!

__xoxo.
Matthew Dragoslav.

Don't Let Your Guard Down,

*Read the title again*

Ha, I guess I still haven't been taught that lesson. >_>

There is a million and one things I hate about myself, but my number one pet peeve would have to be the way I let people in and give the my complete and utter trust. I think there is something inside me (and in most people) that needs those friendships where anything goes, nothing can be said or done basically that will go to far and trust between the two people is endless. I think to date, I've had three friendships that I would call best friends, although I do use the turn more freely in public, only three people have really broken past the level of friendship and become permanent fixtures in my mind. I'm not going to mention names, but I've lost two out of three of those best friends and the other, we've become so distant I'm writing this blog while lying in bed... even though I should be at her birthday party! =/

Something must be in the human physique that makes us eventually hurt one another, something must make us all tell each other the hot gossip to one another; even if it hurts another in the process. Whatever it is, I quite simply hate it :)

The thing that really gets to me are the lies the "two out of three bestfriends" have said after the initial fight, things to make themselves feel better, things to make themselves look superior, things to help themselves rid the thoughts of their wrong doing.

Ha, humans are so superior to any other living organism, yet when it comes down to it, all we have are our voices to destroy people and make ourselves feel better; and when you think about it.. when does it all end?

Seriously, when does it all end?

__xoxo
Matthew Dragoslav.

A New Year Comes With A New Type of Blog,

Well after having a long conversation that went around in circles with one, Ivana Marinovic, we came to the conclusion that I should lighten the moods of my blogs and finally write one without drama in it :) So here goes nothing..

I think it's quite humorous in the past two years how many different cars I have been given/owned and to add to that they've been, how do you say, less expensive each time. From my '09 commodore sv6, to "Barry" the barina and now to the officially mine, "Harold the Hyundai"! Yes, Harold is slightly different from the cars I'm used to driving, although I'm quite enjoying the freedom it brings me. I thinks it's the simple fact that I own the car and that my parents can do absolutely nothing to it that just makes me feel "warm and fuzzy on the inside"! LOL

Okay, I think it's time to say.. Harold isn't that easy on the eye ;).. if at all? LOL but I've spent most of today looking at ways of Pimping My Ride! haha. I think I'll be keeping the details of my pimping a secret for now.. but you'll see soon :) Pictures will be up soon !

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Well guess what just happened! As I'm writing this very blog, dad comes in and offers to buy me a new stereo and seat covers as a late christmas present ! After my.. what the fuck moment.. I was like score :) More money in my pocket! xD!

Anyway, I'm off and probably won't be blogging for the rest of the week as I'm working - but I have next week off :) which means I'll probably getting up to some mischief with the wanker crew.. stay tuned !!

__xoxo.
Matthew Dragoslav

A Night I Don't Completely Want To Remember,

Well last night was new years eve and as much as I try, they always seem to be a major hyped and a major let down in the end. Plans were made, people were in good moods.. I was even that happy I didn't mind paying excessive amounts on alcohol and to share it for the people who didn't buy any! Party started before sunset but by sunset drama was flaring. It is almost as if the moon came up and people went funny, like people turning into scary wolves. Anyway, skipping ahead quit rapidly, things were said, serious things.. and I couldn't shake them, all I could think to do was drink. I was fine until everybody decided to walk to the big park for the countdown to the new year.. anyone who knows me will know that I'm fine drinking excessive amounts of alcohol.. as long as I don't move heaps :) I ended up getting lost and returning to my friends house which is where I realized the back door of my car was unlocked and I could get my emergency stash of alcohol.. like I needed anymore by that stage! Half way through the bottle of cheap "premium" vodka I decide to go look for my friends again.. make it to the park just barely and then fell over in a bush...

... yeahh, I passed out. I was awoke by three guys.. two aussies and one samoan.. luckily they weren't trying to roll me but trying to help me. They stayed with me for almost an hour trying to help me find people, even to the point of using all their phones and mine calling around. I could see new messages on my phone, BUT I was that out of it the writing on the screen all blurred into one colour =/

While waiting, a car pulls up and just my luck, its undercover police. awesome. All I can remember was them trying to get me to stand up and me telling them to go fuck themselves as they idea alone of standing up was making me feel dizzy.. although he was nice, he let me use his lighter :) haha, apparently they were going to arrest me at one stage (probably around the time i told them to go fuck themselves - sorry for the french ladies and gentlemen).

I felt bad for the guys that were trying to help me, they got all their fireworks confiscated of them and had to hide their alcohol. ha! epic fail. -_-"

Anywho, people finally came to get me, the pigs (police) finally left me and I had to be carried home because walking.. well it was simply not an option for me.

What a night. All over something stupid and getting blown absolutely out of proportion. I told myself for the month of december I wouldn't have a New Years Resolution, although I think I might change that and quit drinking.. completely =/ and eventually smoking.. lets say hopefully completely quit by june.

I'm hoping the rest of the year will be better than the first night :)

__xoxo
Matthew Dragoslav.

Flipping Out &,

now laughing my head off! =/ rofl. Well I left off in my last blog that I have to be out of the house by Christmas Eve... well if your living under a rock, just to get you up to speed.. it's Christmas Eve! Anywho, planning where to go and packing with no real place to go in the back of my mind has been making me go crazy, whilst I tried to look sane to my friends (although the close ones knew I wasn't right..)! Well, I've got a place to stay for the next two weeks.. of all places for a half-serb to stay.. a croatian's house with her family =/ LMAO! This is either going to be completely hilarious or completely scary.. especially considering the standard of wogs out Ivana has with her mum already =/ y'eek. what am I getting myself into? xD

OH! and the iceing on the cake... I CAN'T SMOKE AT HER HOUSE! fml, I think I'll be quitting smoking sooner that I expected ;)

:) I'll keep you posted on the happenings when you mix balkan races and put them under one roof in my next blog! XD

__xoxo.
Matthew Dragoslav

Hasn't Time Flown By,

and I don't know where the past few months have gone. I have to admit since my last blog life has been stressful but I've tried to make the best of it all. For those in the dark of whats going on in my life, drama (a word I use way to frequently) all started when I left for Terrigal and joined "The Wankers" for one night of the schoolies trip. I was there for no less than an hour before my father calls me telling me he wants me out of the house before Christmas; that kind of killed the night, although on reassessing my "no drinking while in Terrigal" plan, the night was kind of salvaged even if that phone conversation never left my mind for a moment.

Since then, I've been working and trying to find places to live and to find a car so I can continue working, it's been a long process of promising places falling through and or leading me to dead ends.

I guess one thing went to plan, I bought my very own first car! It may not be the best on the eye, but after i'm done putting my own mark on it should be up to scratch :) AND! Atleast I know for certain that this car has nothing to do with my parents and thus, they can't take it off me like they have the previous two cars I've been given! Photo's will be up when I finally get around to taking some and posted in future blogs, stay tuned :)

It's currently 10.08pm on the 21st of December, leaving me with around three days to figure out where the heck I'm going to live! My mind is constantly, as it has been since Terrigal, going around in circles and while I've been trying to keep calm I don't know how much more of this uncertainty I can take.

Hopefully something will provail itself in the very, very, near future and put my mind at rest! Until then, I'll be keeping you posted. :)

Hope you had fun reading my rant,
Matthew Dragoslav.

Life's Looking Up :)

ahhhhhh; the feeling of no drama. fuck mastercard, this shits truly priceless! haha.

okay.. so with my newly found legalness (lol) I ended up going clubbing as one does the friday right after my birthday:P Vince has been 8teen for a while now.. so I just left all the planning of places to go and what not up to him... turned out to be a good night :) finally went to the "famous" Blink! that he's always raving on about (...although it was dead the night we went.. awesome!) BUT we did meet some cool people and ended up sitting in the smokers area basically the whole night talking and having a good laugh at randoms and what not. (not to mention me getting free drinks for my birthday!! LOL!)

OH! and "apparently" your not allowed to drink in the smokers area of the club.. some rule blah blah blah... but.. you can drink in the adjacent pokies room ;) I only put in a dollar to entertain myself while having a drink.. that's not a gambling problem is it? well the guy giving out change thought it was and gave me a car "do you have a gambling problem?" FUCK HIM! that made me a little shitty.. but then as I was well from being coherent.. my wandered back to the unfinished drink in my hand.. and although the idea of hurling a drink at this guy would be funny.. the aftermath of being thrown out (not to mention.. wasting 8 dollars on a rum and coke -_-") wouldn't be the best way to end the night!

Well.. around 2.30a.m.. and the lockout was looming.. and considering blink was dead like a bitch.. we decided to go to star city :D "It's only a short walk.." says jess. *lying bitch*. LOL! what seemed like forever.. well atleast a little over an hour of walking around town.. we FINALLY got to star city.. became members and swapped our cash for coins ;) haha (gosh.. I do sound like I have a gambling problem... ekk?) anyway.. i'm not wasting time talking about star city. the bitch pokie machines took 17 dollars off me. screw you star city, even though you gave me two free coffee's and free coat check... NO! lmao.

I do believe we were training it home around sunrise.. tried to stay awake.. although some failed:P and went our seperate ways off the train.... for me atleast.. it was straight to mcdonalds for a bacon and egg mc muffin meal... large... add BBQ sauce and four extra pieces of bacon. bahahaha! the gurl just looked at me and I was just like.. how much? :P

Other than that night; I haven't done much else "crazy" (I did leave alot of things out that I can't publicize :Phaha)

OH WAIT!
NOMINGGGGGGG*******************************:D

bahahhaha! I call up Ivana
Me: come get me; i need food i'm so hungry.
Ivana: i'm at ur work in drive thru, lol. what do u want
Me: lrg qtr pounder meal please :)

LOL! she came to my house with alex and ricky and we all ate infront of my house.. me looking like a dero becoz this is the night after clubbing! (not to mention.. midnight saturday night/sunday morning:P. they all look at me and say, come noming with us :) noww.. i'm not sure if I should write down what noming technically is.. but it involves bored children.. nomes... for sale signs.. and james house! :D ohhh and don't forget the gargoil ;) LMAO

After what was a very memorable weekend; back to work for a week overnights.. ughh.. skipping to the weekend again :)

haha; so i get an invite to chris' on saturday night out of the blue for a piss up... yes you read that correctly.. a piss up! I couldn't say no.. maybe this was like the world coming to an end.. seriously; chris hosting a piss up? LOL interesting night.. i've never known a game of "I never.." to be so revealing. *"My Head Is Exploding!!!" ->rofl

I wasn't supposed to drink that night.. but i did. whoops. driving home at 11am wondering what to say to my parents.. wondering if i'm even sober enough to drive! LOL had a quick cat nap and BACK TO WORK.. yay! 4 hours sleep on a hangover.. it felt magical -_-"

To show you how out of it I was.. at one point.. I was taking orders on drive thru and somehow put in an order for 234 large big mac meals.. everyone in the shop just started screaming basically! LOL I'm pissing myself laughing because i'm an idiot.. louise screaming from front counter (infront of customers) "WTF MATT!" and all the boys in back area just kept saying "is that real... is it?"... this all went down with the customer screaming at me because the price on the screen said over 1000dollars! bahahaha

ahhhh good fun :) I hope this week coming is going to be as good as the one just passed :) until next time.
__xoxo.
Matthew Dragoslav.

October; A Month Of Mixed Emotions..

... Where do I start? I think I'll have to start with the bad.. =/

Anyway; drama drama drama doesn't even go near how much drama has occurred. It all started the night after the 3OH!3 concert where we planned to hang at tash's house for pizza and movies.. beyond innocent (which when looking back on all the random stuff we always do.. doesn't make sense why we'd sit there watching movies.. maybe we were just tired still from 3OH!3 the previous night..). We go home and a pretty happy :) Sunday roles its ugly face around the corner. -_-" Accusations of drugs (which is like a massive WTF moment for every person that was there.. like seriously!) Samara starts throwing accusations around like crazy to all our parents.. we start getting "banned from seeing eachother" (.. "excuse me, i graduated kindergarten in 1997 ;)" ).. then the voids in the group started appearing between Ivana and Natasha over a misunderstanding and awkward circumstances.. meanwhile i'm working around the clock so i'm so out of the loop... THEN! samara starts messaging me accusing me of doing drugs "but she will give me another chance" and not to hang around "that tramp"... I kept my cool although respectfully defending myself... wouldn't you if someone was dissing you and accusing of such things? anyway; that led to her blowing up.. WHERE I STILL KEPT MY COOL! (which for people who've known me for years.. you'd be expecting me to loose it!) anyway.. hours of phone conversations go by with threats from a grown woman putting me "on her hitlist" and saying "she's scared of no c-nt!".. like come on; chillax.

this isn't even half the drama. i'd suggest a short intermission to go get refreshments.. your going to be here for a while* :)

back into it; the night of the prank phone calls. omg. me and ivana are with kirra at her house playing wii and eating pizza (*note to self; i ate WAY to much pizza in october.. =/_) while getting all these stupid fone calls on our fones from an obviously middle aged woman with a european accent - WOW! who could that be? I'm not even going to say it. honestly. anyway.. we put up with it and then i click and call natasha to put an end to it becoz it was just getting boring and old. Half way through this (where she saying it was me calling them.. yeah; with what credit?!) my ivana calls her fone yelling about prank calls and almost simultaneously my sister calls kirra's phone for me crying. they've not only been pranking us, but our families. they brought my FOURTEEN YEAR OLD sister down to tears... and this is a woman with children. i was furious but kept my cool; i don't think ivana and kirra had a clue how pissed off i was although they knew i wasn't exactly happy.

at this point; i clicked. if natasha seriously was going to back this behaviour i wanted nothing to do with her. okay; you have a beef with me for whatever reason whether plausable or not (not.) you take it up with me and me only. don't bring my sister into it and bring her to tears by swearing and abusing her. thats just low, especially for an "adult" & "mother".

the next night messages from natasha start asking our position as "friends" and where we are at. I have to put my apologies out to natasha here because I did lose my cool that night; messages both ways did go crazy that night, although even during this I did use bad language and try and bring her down.. It didn't go near her and her mothers threats "to come to my house and bash me" (word for word out of messages..)! but whatever.

NOW! for the final chapter of this ever dragging along saga of drama. -_-"

Owed Money. Me and Ivana owe natasha money for the 3OH!3 tickets which is fair enough.. although if I did want to be a bitch I could sit down for hours and write a list of things natasha owe's me money for and she wouldn't be even able to afford it! but whatever. I owe her money; be a man about it and pay it. move on. arrangements were made for sunday (yesterday) and it was aggreed upon. settled. I find out that they wanted the money friday from ivana on thursday night.. I've got plans (as does she..) and I don't have a car.. urrmm; yeah not happening. I dont' have access to the car all weekend so arrangements are made for monday afternoon "no if's or buts". That was aggreed on even with the reminders on sunday "dickhead I want my money tomorrow or there will be trouble". hmm; didn't respond but yeah. *ENTERING STAGE LEFT- DRAMA :/* Phone's dead*. House phone rings; dad answers.. talking away in the dist. he comes into my room; she's out front -_-" I don't have money on me - I live on my keycard... dad goes down to tell her.. he tells her i'll bring it over tomorrow or she can come here and get it tomorrow and if i don't have it; he'll pay her himselff.. "not good enough" hahaha; then they start yelling.. dad says whatever and starts walking away... "don't yell at me" says some chick in the car.. haha gotta love dad... "i'm not yelling... YOU WAIT FOR ME TO START YELLING!" - he even scared the leb neighbours accross the road. bahaha. I walk into my room and put my fone on charge.. messages to call work =/ urrmm okay; s i call work and they've been there earlier looking for me and going nuts at work.. great!

URGH! i'm done with all this drama.. during this whole fight i've gone of my nut once... once. yet most likely there will be things and stories about me flying everywhere. ha. talk it up :) giving the money today and that's it. I'm done with peoples life crisis' and being dragged into them.. goodbye. :)



ARGH! HAPPY PART OF THE BLOG! ~~~~~END OF DRAMA~~~~~

28th of october, 1991. wait.. that makes 28.10.09 my !8TH BIRTHDAY :D! lol; yep yep. i'm 18 :) surprisingly; I haven't been out all that much.. which kinda is a draggg.. but ive got years of "legalnesssss" to live it up :)

eekk; thats kinda sucky.. the happy party fails compared to the drama:P oh well.. it'll all be over soon which means back to normal having funn :) stay tuned.

xo
Matthew Dragoslav.

"I'm Not Your Cute Little Sexy Toy; Won't Be Your Nasty Little Bitch!" (8)

Okay!~ Before I get into my blog.. I would like to announce... I'M GOING TO 3OH!3 :D! Natasha &&. Ivvay came and surprised me with tickets at work today... I started jumping in the kitchen so all the customers could just see a bopping head over the ice cream machine... mcdonalds is a respectable and highly professional place of work :) Supposedly I'm "paying natasha back"... stay tuned to my blog to find out if that ever happens :D

Well back to the boring bits... that was one heck of a week! If I remember correctly.. I started out with three rostered shifts.. which kind of annoyed me because I hate to bludge.. so I took whatever shifts came my way at the start... then did my actual shifts afterwards as all my shifts were rostered at the end of the week... ALTHOUGH! I end up working WAYYYYY to many shifts because people are injuring themselves like little emo kids after a day of being teased at school~! LOL... I know I started with 24 hours rostered... I'm guna count up how many I worked now.. *blog pause* .. okay so figure's I've lost count :) anywho.. I feel like shit right now, but come payday :) I'll be quite a happy chap.

Ohhh; and after work today.. I had to go get the tickets off Natasha for 3OH!3 ( =] x 98765434567 etc.) ended up having a few ciggies (of her mum's - cheers titties) and then quickly heading over to Ivana's work to drop by... "One Water Please.. " *passes me the water... "Watch Your Car.." and I walk out.. HAHA! want all over the car just to freak her out.. although she do anything.. epic fail -_-"! so just for that extra punch.. I stole her p plate :D BAHAHAHA! I think she finish's work soon.. she'll probably drive over to YELL! at me! bahahaha.

Anyway.. my week was completely boring and spent working. -_-"

Until next time where I actually have crazy adventures to talk about..

__xoxo.
Matthew Dragoslav.

*Note: The title is a 3OH!3 lyric... but all the cool kid's already knew that :D

D.U.I's & Scary Road Closures =/

13.09.09
Tash's Mum's B'day Dinner :D

Okay, my day starts with me freaking out at 7.41 am... i start work in 19 minutes =/ somehow I shaved (poorly_) and showered and dried my hair in eleven minutes... BUT! by the time I got to work.. it was 8.04 -_-". I already told them I couldn't work today's shift because I took extra's for them when they were desperate (20 minute long convo pleading with me... how could I say no!)... blah blah blah... AND THEY GIVE ME A WARNING SLIP! omg. I could have exploded.. but I kept my cool... and it was finally resolved at the end of the shift.. thank god... like seriously.. ask anybody... i'm always at work atleast 30 mins before a shift.. if not an hour and dressed correctly... even with my hair done! (even though sometimes they get me to push it back.... WOGBOY!)!!!

Anyway.... finished at 1pm (short shifts FTW_) and head home to get ready... blah blah blah... i'm ready :) Somehow my mum... yes my mum... wtf.. persuaded my dad to let me use the car for the night :):):) and after packing up some beach chairs and waiting for Ivvayy (who had impeckable timing btw) we were off to pick up natasha in barry the barina :)

We arrive at westfields.. and after me watching some shifty guys in the carpark around barry (my car if u didn't read the previous paragraph you dumb shit !).. we headed to nat's work! Me and Ivvay planned a "Nat's mum is having a heart attack and she's in the hospo... she needs to come NOW! it kinda worked... got her off fifteen minutes early :) yay. haha... blah blah blah.. drove to her house !

When we get to Natasha's house our plans for going to cronulla/wollongong/brighten got completely canned and we end up going to Bankstown Sports.. LOL at driving being Nat's mum while she's going slow for me.. I'm flashing my lights trying to get her to go faster... such a road rage addict! Dinner was good; and reasonably cheap :) Although Ivvay and Nat's plan to sneak the cake in epically failed -_-" damn Marly for giving it away! HAHA

OH! during din dinz.. nat says somethings about the waiter being cute... an asian emo.. wow she's got low standards! LOL! anyway; we embarrassed her by getting his name, asking him his number.. if he's single.. getting him to bring unnessary things just so he'd be near our table! haha.. she ran out of the restaraunt at one point! LOL

After dinner as natasha's mum was paying, we had the idea to get into the nightclub... we looked eighteen and got straight passed security (me holding car keys and ciggies FTW)... once we get around the corner.. its a bunch of 40 y/o's standing around "bopping" to the beat... we looked at eachother and all said "nahhhhhhh" at the same time (why didn't someone say jinx? *sigh) LOL

Get back to the car in the huge carpark and we get the great idea to drive to lakemba... scary shit! haha but didn't stop me and samara beeping our horns past the mosque and going crazy... all the lebo's looking at us like we were slices of bacon. LOL! gotta love it.


Oh yeahh.. and around about this time we took some photo, such as the following :)


Then we drive around to Fiona's house just down the road... beeping our horns like CRAZY! my horn didn't stop for a second... we did it too piss them off; but the thought we were just beeping for a chat... umm.. okay? HAHA!!!

After that; we get the great idea to go to the beach :) the very. VERY. last road and we see cop cars.. i thought it was an RBT and i nearly shit myself (i had a 'celebratory' wine for samara.. damn the zero alco limit) anyway... i beep my horn to samare to turn.. IDIOT! Samara turns into the off street and the cop car parks directly infront of me facing me. *matthew dragoslav dies at the wheel. i turn the opposite way in the other street to samara and stopped the car.. OMG; your licence is gone Ivvayy kept repeating (just what i wanted to hear). I put my head out of the window and i'm like to the copper who was now out of the car... "you pulling me over".. his responce "no, road closure". *matthew dragoslav's heart begins to beat again. (lol) anyway; i drive to samara's car... go past over the hill (where the pigs cant see me) and jump out.. craving like a bitch! I probably would have been sober but i wasn't going to bet my licence on it. HAHA

We drove all the way to brighten.. well; just before brighten because traffic was a BITCH! we stopped for a ciggarette break and to watch the planes... well atleast we got to a beach eventually! haha

On our way home.. -_-" M5 closer. what a joke. almost got into ANOTHER "esh lad escape" because I cut these lad's off.. although it was one lane so it was there fault.. but whatever. Getting home was crazy... luckily samara knew ALLLLLLLLLL the crazy back streets through cantebury. haha

FINALLY back onto the M5 and me and samara are racing to get infront of eachother; I won on the M5; but she beat me back to her place... don't know why but I always got back home the long way through all the back streets... never.. ever.. know why! LOL!

When we get back to natasha's.. Marly's running around with this squirter toy... swear it was a mini version douche bag! LOL; gave us a realllllll good laugh :) and my "silent laugh"! haha

That's pretty much my eventful night :) Minus an uneventful stop at maccas on the way home and me being to tired to push the break going around roundabouts.. me screaming; get out of the way... CBF with the break pedal! LOL

Hahaha :) Goodnight && Happy Birthday Samara (Wife?)

Until Next Time,
_xoxo.
Matthew Dragoslav.

Numero Uno. :)

Well look at this! Matthew Dragoslav, the "Myspace Whore" turned "Facebook Addict", now has his very own blog! =/ I think I'll use this to rant about whatever is on my mind while I think people who are reading actually care (and not bored shitless!).

Anyway; lets talk about my week :)

I'm going to start with Sundayy! Sunday was planned for shopping with Ivvvay & Natasha (yes, you read that last bit right.. we did plan something for once!) to go shopping to buy presents for Kirra & get Ivvvay some scrubs for dress ups :) Anyway, we were sitting out side with my $4.50 "large" plate of chips (worst $4.50 of my life -_-") and having a ciggarette break when I come up with the idea, "Hey, lets have a barbeque at Nats?". Both girls agreed and after getting the okay from Natasha's mum... My Wife... We were off to buy meat! Once we got to Natasha's, we started cooking right away.. I don't know about them.. but I was starved! I've don't think we could have made a more "wogged out" meal if we tried. A serbian and croatian mixed potato salad (although; I think Natasha's Mum (greek) added to it), along with the greek salad and the masses of sausages we bought! LOL there was so much food I though I was going to be sick! haha


Monday was dodgy. work work work. moving right along to tuesday afternoon :)

Tuesday afternoon; its hot, my hair's been pushed back for work, I'm all sweaty and who do I find outside waiting for me... KirRAWR! :D ON HER BIRTHDAY SHE SURPRISES ME!?! LOL ... blah blah blah; long story short.. I ended up sleeping at her house for the night.. after a few celebratory drinks of course ;) LOL... that night will be remember in my mind as "Rip Her T!TS Off!" and me "Bathing Literally In Vodka"... because that's just how I role ;)

oh oh; blog pause button please. *** HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIRRA! *** & now back to your scheduled blog programing by Matthew Dragoslav. :)

Wednesday worked out funny.. Ivana randomly shows up with Benita at work and I get them to wait for me :) Benita had to go home right away but I ended up staying with Ivana until almost 10pm? We saw Ricky, James, Zomaya, supposedly Giles? LOL... OH! and who thought matty the mazda didn't have it in him.. he beat a ford falcon.. with James as Driver!!! ... although I was driving matty at the time.. and I'm pretty sure I'm a "Crazy Serb Driver" as people preferrably know me as :)

Thursday was shit. I worked until 1am. Like a bitch. Moving Along. xD!

OH~ now for my RANT!:) I'm at a crossroads (sorry ivana... dejavu?); I don't know what I'm to do. Hincho or Carnes Hill? Its abit confusing for me.. and I have the future to think about.. so everything is a little up in the air atm.. and anyway who knows me knows I hate indecisiveness -_-" any suggestions?

I would like to give a round of applause to everyone (or anyone) who managed to read through all of that; hope you return again sometime ! :)

Until Next Time;
_xoxo.
Matthew Dragoslav.