*Read the title again*
Ha, I guess I still haven't been taught that lesson. >_>
There is a million and one things I hate about myself, but my number one pet peeve would have to be the way I let people in and give the my complete and utter trust. I think there is something inside me (and in most people) that needs those friendships where anything goes, nothing can be said or done basically that will go to far and trust between the two people is endless. I think to date, I've had three friendships that I would call best friends, although I do use the turn more freely in public, only three people have really broken past the level of friendship and become permanent fixtures in my mind. I'm not going to mention names, but I've lost two out of three of those best friends and the other, we've become so distant I'm writing this blog while lying in bed... even though I should be at her birthday party! =/
Something must be in the human physique that makes us eventually hurt one another, something must make us all tell each other the hot gossip to one another; even if it hurts another in the process. Whatever it is, I quite simply hate it :)
The thing that really gets to me are the lies the "two out of three bestfriends" have said after the initial fight, things to make themselves feel better, things to make themselves look superior, things to help themselves rid the thoughts of their wrong doing.
Ha, humans are so superior to any other living organism, yet when it comes down to it, all we have are our voices to destroy people and make ourselves feel better; and when you think about it.. when does it all end?
Seriously, when does it all end?
__xoxo
Matthew Dragoslav.
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