Change Is Inevitable;

It’s true, but does it have to be final with no way of reverse? I’m sitting here listening to ‘old’ music, it’s making me both laugh and remember the past few years. I don’t even know where to begin!

One thing that it does bring to my mind, why does everyone think humans are superior than any other race on earth? Alright, I’ll give it that we are more technologically advanced, but emotionally… do I even need to go there? It seems like every one wants to just listen to that juicy gossip or when in a fight, never make the first move… then just TALK! LOL, seriously it’s fucked. :)

^^^ there is my rant for the week! Haha

The past week has dragged on for ages :P That might have been because I did all-nighters and somehow pulled a twenty-two hour stay at work both helping them with F.O.R. prep (our head office visit) and fixing my never ending car troubles! We passed our F.O.R. with a triple A rating which everyone seems to be pleased about :)

How could I forget last Friday nights being cheap night! Everyone wanted to go to Bl!nk, but no one wanted to spend the money.. long story short, we ended up driving in just to get Subway around the corner from Bl!nk and getting our friends that had gone to come eat with us! Haha

Haha, and going to the “Catho” Monday night with Bec before work because we both had o/night and Charlie had a meeting there, we thought we would have the awkward moment of seeing them as they’d most likely have a conference room.. ha, yeah as soon as we walked in we saw them and had to pull out money right next to them.. Awkward! :P Was a good night just “having a slap” on the dingers and playing keno while we ate.. bahaha, so bogan :( lol.

This weeks going to be my lazy week, although I’ve been saying that for the past month! Haha, I’ll keep you posted!

__xoxo.

Matthew Dragoslav.

On A Lighter Note..

Well I figured I needed a lighter note from my last blog and I'm going to start making an effort to right these blogs more frequently :)

I think I need to get away, I think I'm going to get away this weekend. I don't know where too, I don't know who with, I just simply miss being spontaneous and free! All the drama of the last few months used to be nothing for me and I think it's because I feel so "caged in" that I can't handle it. So from now on, no more concentrating on the drama and more to just going to the care free me who just went with the flow :)

Ohhh; for those interested, I killed the suave! haha, I got bored and wanted yet another change of style, I couldn't decide so I went back to my old style ("the old enddy") but that will be changed soon yet again ;)

Haha, well I can't think of anything else to write at the moment, my mind is numb as it is currently 5am and I have just finished my 8 hours overnight shift =/ ahhhh, another day, another dollar :D lol.

I'll keep you posted on the spontaneous getaway plans through out the week:P
__xoxo.
Matthew Dragoslav.

I'm Done;

Why do I seem to love befriending and trusting the people who in life love the drama of making the fights even worse than they really are? Yes, people from time to time have a difference of opinions, don't see eye to eye, an argument is started; does that mean a world war 3 needs to be created? On that note, when we become so close to our "besties", our "BFF's", we know exactly what would hurt them emotionally and I'm done with the ones that use those things and people in your life against you to get at you, it's beyond childish. Yes, it's the easy way out and at the time, gosh won't it make you feel better about situation, even yourself to extent, but will you still feel the same down the track?

Your reading this blog (I'm not going to play dumb, if your reading this blog you know who it's about) and thinking I'm taking this all out on you; I'm not. The people that surround you and don't speak up and sit on the fence, or even worse; going between you and I and making us both believe that their on our sides are just as gutless and as worthless as what you did.

I think the past years just taught me you really can't trust your life with anyone, it'll only lead your heart to be broken, which is an extremely pessimistic outlook on life but I can't seem to see a better way to sum it all up.

In closing, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being there for you when other's wouldn't of cared, which was quite alot. I'm sorry for doing all those stupid little things to calm you down, even stupid things like giving you money to put petrol in your car to calm your nervesbecause it was "close" to the empty line. I'm sorry I sat on the phone to you for hours, of my own credit because you were always out of credit, listening to you whine about problems that weren't really problems or should I say, not yours... but yet I still listen sympathetically and tried giving advice... remind you of conversations? Think about our last conversation on the phone. Lastly, I'm sorry for wanting you to be there for me when things were crashing around me and then blowing up, sorry that I expected you of all people to stop and listen, show an incling of sympathy, or even caring when everything seemed to be falling apart... I was even wanting you t fix the problems, because I knew you couldn't if I couldn't, just knowing you were there would have been alot easier.

Sorry for the rage ranting, I guess it's what I have to do to clear my mind of all the thoughts.

Now, I'm Done.